random thoughts.

Hello cyber world : ) 

This is Abigail posting and after thinking for a while I have some thoughts to put out there.

First off I can not believe that we are less than a week from departing on this amazing adventure God has placed in my path. I definitely feel that this time in Africa is Gods will for my life and as I have been taught by my father and continue to believe for myself the safest place for me to be is in Gods will. If you knew me growing up or even know me now you know that I have always had a hard time making a decision and then sticking with it. I was always torn about what the outcome would be and I would be filled with so much anxiety.I was thinking about the trip the other night and I realized I never once questioned this trip and since I have made my decision to go I have had no anxiety about it. This to me is definitely a sign of the fact this is where I am supposed to be right now in my life.

Well since being home for college Kaitlyn and I have been preparing material wise for Africa. We bought water filters and purification tablets, we've gotten supplies to bring with us and just making sure we can do everything in our power to stay safe. I personally have been preparing myself emotionally and spiritually. I have been continually praying for this trip and those of us going and just asking God to direct everything we say and do. I think all the emotional preparation though is good to do but I will not even begin to understand until I get there the conditions these amazing people live in until I get there, and even once I get there I am only there for 2 weeks and this is their lives so I just hope I can contain myself from not getting too upset.

Last thing is I am not scared of this trip and what it entails at all. I am not scared of cholera, of new foods, of political unrest but the one thing that I am truly nervous about is showing them the love of God and helping them as much as humanly possible for me. I am scared I am not cut for the job that I will mess up and I believe this is the devil telling me this and so I continually remind myself God called me to this trip and He gives us nothing we can not handle and so I find comfort in that.

On an ending note I ask that you all continue to pray for us in our final preparations, and then continue to pray for us while we are there and even when we come home. That we would be affected to want to help be the change and help with change but that we would not be so weighed down we have a hard time going on. That we will stay healthy. Also pray for our travel that we would be safe both there and back. I promise to pray for you guys the senders because you are a vital part in us being able to go! I will try and update again before leaving and I know we will try to update whenever we can!

Much Love and God Bless!

Abigail